I gotta tell ya.. I can be lazy. I lack serious self-motivation quite often. But when I do a job, I do it to the best of my ability. I cried in work this past week because my boss decided to scream at me in front of two co-workers. Yeah, not fun. I refused to cry in front of him, took the berating and walked away with my head held high. I stormed down the hallway, to the bathroom, shut the door sat on the toilet (with the lid down) and cried. It is moments like these that I ask myself, "what are you waiting for, Darlene?"
Seriously. What am I waiting for? There is no magical fairyland of publishers, no winning lottery ticket in my midst. There is no fairy godmother that is going to tickle my nose with fairy dust in my sleep and take me way to the life of my dreams. I have to earn it. I have to own it.
I have been writing... a lot. I have noticed in my writing that I am developing my voice and I kind of like it. I'm a little bit of a smart ass and I am okay with that.
This week is finally over. *stars, whistles, a cheering crowd*
We rode up to New Hope Friday night via the motorcycles to drink iced coffee and watch fire works. The weather was perfect and the company great, too. Andy (my boyfriend) and Joe rode along on their own bikes with me. I was able to relax and really reflect as I rode - well, in between slowing down for the umpteen deer that stood on either side of the road.
I believe in animal totems. I believe that every animal I see on a given day is trying to tell me something. You can call me crazy or childish. But that is what I believe. I listen to these animals.
The deer totem signifies the gentle lure of new adventures.
Sounds great to me!